2 Steps Back

29 Mar

Written By Monica

Lord, I feel like I'm struggling with lessons that I thought I mastered as an adolescent.

Yet now, implementing those statutes seem to be further to me than the Sahara Desert.

Why does it feel like my spiritual life is going backward? 1 step forward seems to leave me 2 steps back, making a slide in Snakes and Ladders seem like a personal attack.

Perhaps the reality is that the more I grow in You the more I need to relearn Your teachings to a deeper extent.

Though, that reasoning sometimes leaves me with so much discontent.

Or perhaps, I need to relearn to be Your little child again, hopelessly dependent on You, where Your voice is the first and only thing on my mind. Maybe that way, Your fruits will naturally develop too.

Monica

Hi!

My name is Monica and I’m most commonly described as a small and smiley individual. I’m most happy doing something artistic, whether that be painting, photography or writing. If you want to find me, I’ll probably be gallivanting with eyes wide open in Hobbycraft.

I’m passionate about Wander to Wonder because we all experience similar struggles that we either speak to one person about, or to no one at all; the latter leading us to internalise and amplify the situation. Either way, we become taken aback when we hear that someone else has had similar spiritual experiences. I think that’s owed to a lack of space for that conversation to happen.

So, my prayer is that through sharing my candid and vulnerable explorations of a typical Christian life, you may learn something new about yourself too, and in turn, we can learn from each other.

I hope to hear from you :),

With love,

Mons x

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